Me Versus me

I try to build something solid, something real

But the hand that holds the bricks is the one that steal

One step forward, two thoughts back

The mind turns traitor, launches its attack

No foe in the mirror, no shadow to fight

Just this war I declare on myself every night

I sabotage the ground I stand upon

Because trusting peace feels wrong

Peace arrives like a guest at the door

I lock it out before it can ask for more

Because calm feels like a trick, like a lie

And the war inside knows how to keep me alive

By keeping me bleeding, by keeping me small

By never letting the fighting stall

It's a fight I can't win and I can't escape

Me against me in this endless shape

Every quiet moment gets torn apart

By the war I wage on my own heart

Peace of mind is a word I don't believe in anymore

Because the battle lives right behind the door

It ruins the days, it poisons the years

This war with myself is all I hear

I wake up planning to choose the light

But the critic inside starts the fight

"Too weak, too slow, too much, too late"

The verdict comes before I even create

I ruin good mornings with second-guess rain

Turn joy into proof of my endless pain

The life I could live stays locked in a cage

Because I’m the warden, I’m the rage

How do you make peace with the one who destroys?

The one who whispers "you deserve the noise"

I’ve tried every trick, every line, every plea

But the enemy wears the same face as me

No truce is possible, no white flag holds

The war just changes temperature, never folds

It’s not dramatic, it’s just constant and deep

Stealing the life I was supposed to keep

It's a fight I can't win and I won't surrender

Me against me, no beginning, no ender

Every breath is a round in this internal hell

Peace of mind stays a story I’ll never tell

It ruins the days, it poisons the light

This war with myself is my permanent fight

No victory coming, no calm on the way

Just me versus me, every single day

Me versus me…

Every day…

No end…

No end…